My Oh My

It's already been more than a month working in my new workplace. So many unexpected things had happened. Well, im not complaining. Just an understated statement. But still...the issues such as Politics... Weak or poor management system... just the same old things. BorrrRRRiiNNNGG!! or should i rather say FrustraTiNG??

Forget about work and never ending stress, im now extremely affected by lots of issues especially concerning of pregnancies. Why?? Malays...whether they are single or married, young or old, with the same old orthodox, there is no way of escaping their irritating interrogations. If I could burn a hole through the wall everytime they shoot me with such question, I would simply dash towards the hole and vanish into thin air. Ha ha ha...What a wish.    

Back in Action

Tomorrow is the day. I'll be leaving home and driving extremely early in the morning for work. I am expected to report duty at 8 AM. Hope everything goes well. Insyallah. Undoubtedly, meeting new people and making new friends restrain me a bit though I really anticipate that moments. After all, first impression is definitely crucial. I'd better not make myself look silly nor snobbish. Not ever. Period. Pray that I'd adjust myself pretty well peeps. uh-oh. Now I'm nervous....

Back On the BloG

Life has never been gentle to me these past couple of months. Too many ups and downs. Some were expected but some weren't. Shit happens. A part of me wanting to write it here in this blog and share with you but another part of me keep saying that "Let bygones be bygones". I stick with the latter. No need to share them here. Neeway, things happen for a reason, aren't they? Guess what matters the most is to stand up after the fall and keep moving forward....

Yet, there are too many things that I want to do at a time...Too many dreams to be fulfilled....Too many ...there are just too many....though I have to take one step at a time to do one single thing after another..  first and foremost, the thing that I want to change and must change is my personality and attitude!! I'm aiming for polishing my soft skills to the optimum. Yes, you heard me. I need to learn HOW to talk, listen and act the right way...Other things will follow suit.

 Let's hope for better future everyone!! Im back on blogging and this time around, i mean business. Whatever that means, cheers!!!

BBQ di Pantai Kemasik

Tell you what...

Common Situation that I caught myself into

A: Try this...it's C's favourite dish
B: sure why not (being polite) ...after tasting........Ok lah good.. (gosh, what else can be said?)
A: Do you know how to prepare it?
B: Well, kind of  not really...  (Do I have to deal with this?)  there's only two of us at home....I only prepare what D eats...
A: Well you should. You have to start learning how to cook.

Well, point taken. I admit that I rarely cook. If you had read my earlier entry, I had mentioned about it before. Even If I seemed very clumsy at washing dishes and helping others in the kitchen, doesn't mean that I am totally ZERO about anything that is related to FOOD and COOK.

Have it ever crossed their minds that (for some reasons):

I am eating alone most of the time
I could be telling them WHITE lies
I don't want to show off
I am not ready to share my portion of meals
I only cook what I want to eat
I have different taste of food
I have lack of cooking utensils
I only feel comfortable in my own kitchen
I lay low due to respecting them as the OTAIs (Old Timers) in cooking
I finally got my own kitchen
I want to stay DIET (eat less, exercise more)
I am not interested to SHARE what I cook
and bla bla bla bla bla bla bla...

Having myself listened to such thing hurts me deep down inside.
The fact that I am NOT a GOOD COOK is very well accepted.
But to have mistakenly judged for KNOWING NOTHING AT ALL is off the limit.
Teach me, show me without crticism
I'd be more than delighted to have you as my unpaid CHEF

P/S: Guess I have to start looking for a punching bag...hehe just kidding.

Letter to my BFF

I understand your situation at the moment.
I know what you feel, think, worry, experience....
Whenever you need my shoulder to cry on or lending my ears to listen...
I would try my best to put myself in your shoes...
No bias, no judgment, no false pretense....
As always, I'd be very careful in choosing words before they come out from my mouth....
Hurting you even deeper has never been my intention...
I just want nothing but the best for you and your life for that matter
Being single is suffocating aspecially when you are getting older...
People around you start asking lots and lots silly or even sarcastic questions just out of curiosity..
They would never shut their mouths and to have listened to such annoyance get you more depressed
You go mad by blaming yourself and others
Thinking that life isn't fair
Well maybe I dont actually really understand you...(my bad..)
The least that I could do is to say that ...
Im available whenever you need me..
I could share some pointers in your quest to seek for love
I admit that I am no expert when it comes to taste and what nots
But do trust me when I say this...
"Never judge a book by its cover" or "Looks can be deceiving"
Life is amusing.....the more you focus on the things that you dont want to have..the more it appears in life...
So stop saying what I don't want..
Stop comparing...
Instead, start experience many odds in life with an open mind...
Be as you are as I see you before...
Everything else around you could change..
But not the soul which buried deep inside you
You know what you want in life..
Fulfil your needs not others'..
Hold your chin high and walk tall
You define your own happiness
PERIOD!!

 p/s:  May Allah Bless You  \(^0^)/

Extra size....

It has been a long time since I last shop for my wardrobe....last week after rearranging my clothes in the so called closet, I realized that my few collections of long sleeve shirts are no longer suitable to be worn for outing. I could still wear them, but of course minus the comfortable aspect. LMFAO. The thing is, I have grown inches around my belly. I dare not want to hear any critics coming from the implausible experts judging the way how I look in those tight shirts.Not right now. Not ever. Enough with the judgment coming from Hubby alone. (",)

Having the thought of adding another 2 or 3 new dresses caught Hubby's attention. He was generous enough to have me back on the search for the soon-to-be-my-new-style dresses. We went to the KB Mall since we were in Besut for a short holidays. I did not know what to expect now that I have lost track of the latest fashion style. Really need to get back to work. ~sigh~ That's another issue peeps. 

After I had spent quite some time on playing the dress up games I had to finally settled on two blouses. The funny part was when I foolishly convinced myself that I was still fit in the Small size. Well guess what?? Neither Small nor Medium size could fit me in. NOOoooooOOOOOOoooo!!! You heard me. Neither..nor. With a heavy feeling, I have to embrace the fact that I could only FIT for a LARGE size....as of now. Hopefully forever. Speaking of the extra size.....GULP!!

Missing my used-to-be flat tummy......Exercises are needed later  immediately!! ASAP!!

The Lost Spirit

I am almost there.....
My dream goals are within my reach...
Just a lil bit more efforts and struggling...
I would get what I really DESIRE right now...

I want to complete my M.ed TESL this sem..
I want to have a permanent and rewarding career as a lecturer
I want to have my own tuition centre
I want to pay off the debts
I want to shop till I drop
I want to travel whenever I like
I want to have babies
I want SOOOOOOOOoooo many things...

But what I extremely want the most as of now is nothing but MOTIVATION..
Something that can push me harder so that I would go far in realizing my dreams...

Expect the Unexpected

       I believe everyone has their own experience dealing with many kinds of people who work behind the service counter. They could be servicing us foods, lodging, and yada yada. The most essential elements that we expect from these personnel are no other than warm and polite treatment, positive attitude and proper language, indeed. Does not matter if you are wearing branded clothes from head to toe or just simply looking very plain and down to earth, the treatment should be equally fair Never ever be judgmental towards others. You may not be aware that the person you are servicing is someone of high status eventhough he or she looks very far from elegant. Simply put, "Never judge a book by its cover." 

But then again, I guess not everyone is concerned about these crucial elements stated above. It is understandable that majority of those who don't have high education may have high tendency to show improper attitude in certain circumstances (merely my opinion, not a fact). Why do I say so? Here goes...

         After quite a long time since I last had fun at the bowling alley, Hubby and I went to bowl yesterday. Don't ask me where 'coz I know you guys would know exactly where the place is. I brought along my bowling shoes and a ball which were placed inside a backpack (Just so you know, I don't have the proper bowling bag). As usual, the excited me would be the one to stand at the counter to place the order. Normally, you are required to let the person who works behind the counter knows the number of games each bowler wants, the pair of socks you need and lastly of course the pair of shoes.

          In my case, I only needed one pair of shoes, no socks at all plus 3 games for each. The moment I said one pair of shoes, the 'tomboy' sarcastically asked, " Kasut ape?" I was taken aback...If I were KIMORA LEE SIMMONS, I would definitely pulled a face. Gosh...puhleesee...Do you play HANGAROO?? I like the hot question that is asked by the cute Kangaroo.."Are you an idiot or sumtin'?" Of course I referred to the bowling shoes...HELLLOOO!! We are at the bowling alley, NOT at the Al-Ikhsan Store. She snickered when I said "Kasut bowling lah." If she did it on purpose thinking that I know nothing about the rules which is compulsory for every bowler to wear a pair of bowling shoes, she could just at least ask me why I needed only one pair instead of two??? Just because i wore high heels at that time with make-up on my face, she couldn't jump into conclusion by thinking that I was such a Drama-Queen. Haven't you seen any athletes wearing their best when out of the field or court? Athletic people are varieties in styles and ways.Put the D to DUH!! (rolling my eyes twice!!)

         Enough with the 'tomboy.' Screw her. Next, Hubby went to the right side of the counter asking for his size number of shoes. This time another girl attended to his request. She gave him what he requested but before Hubby moved away, I noticed that the front outer lining of the shoes was a bit torn up. It looked like someone hanging out his tongue. I asked her politely, requesting for a substitute. She startled me when replying out loud "Saya malas lah nak ambik." When I heard her, I thought the shoe rack was far from where she was standing but the truth was, it wasn't!! It was just below her knees. I stared at her blankly. After a moment, she did bend down and take out another two pair of shoes. Showing them to us by adding, " Yang ni lagi teruk. Itu ok lagi ada tapak. Yang ni langsung takde."  I was like, "Oh, Okay. Fine. Thank you." But what was with the tone of voice young lady?? I did not ask something ridiculous that you could not do. I didn't criticise the FUGLY shoes that you have in the rack. I didn't even compare your bowling alley with MIBC (Melaka International Bowling Centre) which got the largest space (after the collapsed stadium in Terengganu) [correct me if I'm wrong}, cleanest and most beautiful shoes plus newest equipments. I DIDN'T say all that, DID I?? Shrugged and feeling irritated, I walked away from the counter looking very grumpy.

      WELL DONE!! You two $&^&*^* people, just spoiled my mood for the day!!! I had never been so thankful. (Please read this while placing both of your hands on the shoulder with your eyes looking up to the ceiling).

        You know what, I could go on and on stating matter-of-factly that the two people are simply 'chowder-heads.' I did not act cocky at all but they tried to mess around with me by serving Hubby and I badly. No manners!!

       Hubby said to me, "If they are smart enough, that wouldn't be their jobs in the first place." Well honey, you are probably right. I totally agree with you.

P/S: So you guys out there, please "EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED."

Cooking Is my SOUL FOE

I have never been a big fan of cooking dishes. Throughout my teen years, all I know was eat, eat and eat. Don't get me wrong. I did my part in the kitchen as well which was washing the dishes and help Mak preparing the ingredients. Not that bad huh? Things are different now. If before this I could just simply said NO to cooking and helping Mak to serve the family meals, but since I am already a wife to Hubby and a daughter-in-law to Ma and Aboh, I have to get myself familiar with the different types of recipes and prepare them all by myself. So far, I hardly passed Hubby's level of expectation and taste. This failure makes me really upset. If I fail to satisfy his appetite, I would definitely do a lot of damage to others'. Scary isn't it? Well...poor me. Hopefully, I'll improve my cooking skills from time to time without even giving up. Never ever.

P/S: Im now good at cooking Black Pepper Steak...\(^0^)/

Are You Pregnant??

      Getting a job Pregnancy has become an issue which I have to deal with lately. I am married for only 3 months yet this seems to bother me somehow. Many of my friends (some close but others don't) just delivered their beautiful babies and there are those who still have theirs in the oven. I am overjoyed when sharing the news. Who's not??

      It is difficult to go through the 9 month period having to carry the big tummy around yet many have survived. I am looking forward to experience such wonderful moment but luck ('rezeki') is not on my side. Not yet.

        I believe the happiest person to ever receive the news later if Im pregnant, next to Hubby is of course my mom. She has waited for so long to cuddle her own grandchild (flesh and blood) in her arms. Well, don't you worry mom. Im working my best here to bring the lil sunshine to you. (",) Just you wait...Insyallah the time will come.

You Can Can't Have It All

Teaching is my passion and i had done that for more than three years. I had become a lecturer at UiTM Perak once i graduated from UiTM Shah Alam after completing my Bachelor Degree in TESL. The decision to get married had me quitting from my job and moved to Terengganu to start my new life. I expected that I'd be back on teaching duty as soon as possible but luck is not on my side. Not yet. Im trying to be positive and looking things on the bright side. God knows what is best for me and such belief keeps me looking forward to the future. I really hope that I am back working and getting busy because my life will be more rewarding if I am able to return my parents' good deeds and fulfilling their wishes as best as I could. Pray for my success in life and one thing for sure, my faith in God will keep getting stronger.

How It Started

       Life was perfect when i was single but it got better when I have my better-half entering my life. The moment I laid my eyes on him I just knew it...the man who I wanted to spend the rest of my life with was none other than him. How did i find him?Never did i know that fate had played its role when I was introduced by my friend's boyfriend to him by accident. Funny isn't it? Well, miracle happens when you believe. I believed that I would have found the one and only man who deserved to be loved and there...I got him!!It took us 5 days to texting with each other and later it led to a blind date. A week later we made the most wonderful declaration to be soulmates and promised to care for one another through the ups and downs for as long as we live. It was a big turning point in our lives, indeed.

      Now im smiling from ear to ear. Im blessed, content, pleased....well you name it. Hope our love will keep stronger and blossoming days by days. Looking forward for better future together. Insyallah, amin.